i mustn't
by me
at 1740 hours, gmt +8

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i want to cry
but i mustn't

i failed my inclined
again and again and again and again
for a grand total of
four times

couldn't make it past the line
damned string

i want to slap her
but i mustn't

i've endured again and again
her meanness, her royal bitchiness
the way she swears at me
under her breath
(she mustn't know that i can hear)

i mustn't -

it's not proper behavior
especially not for me

the straight-as student
the mature daughter
the good-natured girl

who speaks up for herself

too softly and seldom.

^ not a poem
i needs comfort, nao

ohnoooooooooooooooooooooooooo
My brother found my PM4 thumbdrive.
I'll have to delete it temporarily.

Cube needs more loving. I think I'm the only Cube fangirl on LJ other than cube_no_miko

Went fanfic-hunting today and only found one Cube/Yucie by .

On an unrelated note, studying sucks.

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Emiya married Cube today!

zomg I love the engagement scene, really. Thank goodness I saved before it. I'm watching Puchi Puri Yuushi on Youtube now just to hear his voice again asdf

In the blink of an eye, Emiya has grown to thirteen years of age.
She now mainly works at a restaraunt, where her pay has grown to more than 20G per day.
In her other time, she goes out around the village and helps Cube with housework.
She has witnessed a skirtlifting as well as talked to her teddy bear.

Cube says that this is a sign that the demon blood in her is resurfacing, and offered me advice to buy holy water from the church regularly. There was another part to his advice, but I missed out on it because I couldn't read some of the words.

I started a new Princess Maker 4 game today.
Her name is Emiya, and her surname (i.e. "my" family name) is Liszt. I don't play Liszt scores or anything, they're out of my range. It just sounded okay so I stuck with it.

I'm hoping that she will get to marry Cube because Cube is such a sweet and asdf awesome butler. Despite the fact that he looks a bit funny in some of the event CGs, he is megas awesome. (and his dialog portraits are really cute!) I think that such an ending exists, so I'm trying to get her to spend as much time with Cube as possible, which has been easy.

She falls sick just about every other month, for some reason. I'm not sure why. She's on a "gentle" diet or something (I don't know how it goes in English) but my other daughter Yu-ki is perfectly healthy on the same diet. Perhaps it's her blood type? Emiya is of blood type B. Every time she falls sick, I let Cube take care of her. I've been trying to get her to do housework with him, but finances are tight and I have had no choice but to send her to the farm and babysit recently.

I wonder what will happen?

Let's see. Which internet cliches do I know of?
The answer: Not very many.

Poor grammar and spelling has its own set of rules to follow. I be very amused by those sometiems but mostly annoy'd.
Otaku memes come and go, but one thing I'm really annoyed of is the "Nice [everything]".

Nice boat.
Nice calculator.
Nice journal.
Nice book.
Nice pad.
Nice pen.
Nice watch.
Nice comb.
Nice kill.

Another thing I don't like is how people often start "lol zomgbbq you don't know what F.O.E. is?!" whenever you ask them about a term you're not sure of. It's like this little group of people "in the know" actually know what the terms mean, refuse to share it, and leave the rest of the internet population to use them wrongly, then they laugh at them.

Example:

A: (at a piece of good, but shocking news) omg ftw?!?!?!
B: *what* ftw?
A: isn't ftw like...the opposite of wtf? you know, good and expressing wtf at the same time
B: wwwwwwwwwwwww

I'm not thinking very coherently.